=)

your word shall be a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. (:

it gives me comfort in times of restlessness, stress and uncertainty.


and it reminds me that you are GOOD, despite the circumstances.
and that even if i can't see the whole picture, i know you're painting on a canvas bigger than i could ever see or understand.

=)

(:

it made my heart leap. even if it was JUST an interview, and not confirmingly the apprenticeship.

but you just had to crush it. =(

you just had to tear it to pieces.
you just had to...push me back to that thing. that chore.

i don't need you to agree with me, i just need you to listen and try to underderstand.

You don't have to say anything, you just need to let me choose.
not condemn me to that thing. haha, yes, thing! which i happen to be studying.

i would not have quit my degree.
i know my priorities alright.

It just hurt bcos it felt as if u don't care what i want.
you don't care about what i'm passionate about.
what drives me. what puts a smile on my face.

and the tears just fell the whole day. ='(
becos i know you'll never support my dream.
you'll never let me pursue that...

and that was when. i was grateful. thankful. that i was never smart enough to be a doctor.
it's not that i dislike being a doctor... i just don't want to be "force" to do something just because i am capable of doing it.

i'm thankful i never excelled in physics.

and maybe then i wonder would it be different if i had just failed all my courses.
then... hmm, maybe then,
you would let me pursue that line which i wish to go.

and it did made me think of intentionally failing my 4 courses now.. so that i would never graduate with a bachelor of commerce.
Hah!

don't worry, i'm not that desperate. that insane... if you would like to call it.

i just wish. just wish you could... i don't know. give me a choice.

i can see where you're coming from. and i understand.
but it hurts that i don't have your support.

that it does not matter what i feel. what i think.
it's "fated". by you.

=(

yes, the truth is i am dissappointed.
that you would not even care to listen.
that i was that happy, but after sharing my joy with you,
that happiness, short-lived, was turn to tears of despair.

i know u love me. i love you too.
but if you wanted to know how much that crushed me,
well. it just crushed me. =(

HIM.

i love you bcos you make me want HIM more.

indirectly. unknowingly.


maybe u're in my life to show me that no one else will satisfy but HIM.
that in the end, nothing else matters but HIM.

"Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made" - John 1:3

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As the deer pants for the water, so my soul longs for you. ~Psalms 43 ~
Just you! (: not him, her or anyone else....

where la?

everyday i ask myself... where are you?????? =(

yes.. people always told me it's hard.. hahahha, YES!! i attest! IT IS HARD!! =p

The flood.

could it be that maybe... just maybe...

i'm losing my appetite, feeling emo-yish.., sad,...

cos of you??????

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo...
hmm, never really thought about it, but yea.. maybe... maybe it's you.
maybe i just want to run away and never have to see you.
bcos you remind me of so many things.
so many things i thought i've forgotten...

and then i see you.
and all those memories just come flooding in. =(

why in the world am i blaming you?
aaaaaaahhh.. sorrrrrrriiiieeeeeee... oops, didn't mean to be pushing the blame on you or anything.
i know there're all just history. hahaha.

so there. i just got to deal with facing you and be fine with it! =D

The past haunts! hahahahaha. ok, yes yes. i'm plain scared la. dunno scared of what also. hahaha. weird elizabeth. The LORD is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. haha, i shall not be afraid, for YOU are with me! (:

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"God took Noah into the flood - and He also brought him out of it.
Similarly, He has not brought you to this point in your life to abandon you.
Whatever the problems you face at this moment - God will bring you through. "


AMEN! (:

stresss

ahhhh!!! so many things to do. it's kinda overwhelming.

and realized that i still have things undone in malaysia...

argh!!
i can't find my SAM results!!! this is soooooooooooo bad!!
God, please please please help me find it.
Dad's gonna kill me otherwise.
then he'll get stress.
then he'll give up on applying for PR.
hahaha, then, i dunno...
things will get even more complicated.

ahhhhh.... this is too much. hahaha, i want to fly back to malaysia... =D

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satan appeals to the:
1) lust of the flesh
2) lust of the eyes
3) pride of life

Stand guard, with the shield of faith, standing firm on his word of truth, promises that WILL come to past.
Lord, lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one....

Blessed 2010!

It's a new year!

Hmmm.. this year... has been different. maybe bcos usually (as the past 3 years or so), new year's eve has always been celebrated in church.

Hearing the many testimonies of God's abundance, sharing my testimony of God's goodness as well and being mutually encourage by one another.
There was always reflection on the year.. hahaha, how else would you be able to go out and share?

but this year? hahaha, new year was back in canberra.
seeing fireworks from my room. haha, not much of a physical company, just had myself.
but I always have the spirit of God, and that's a comfort. (:

and yea, haha, a call from mr. Fan at around midnight to countdown with me. haha, thanks dear. (:
and a super sweet message from my dad. haha. ^^
plus.... of cos sms-es from my beloved kekasih and cucu.
and friends! hee.

oklah, see.. after i reflect, new year wasn't that bad after all! (:
And so, i'm excited to see what God has install for the year ahead!

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If we're the image bearers of God, how much of God's image is reflected in me?....